To BC or not to BC. And to find a midwife.
This morning I get the missing Mirena out.
::must stay positive::
And then with it out – the question remains of what’s next. Do we use FAM for prevention?
Or to expand our family?
Because now it’s real, I have to make a choice. The
stupid, horrible, wth kind of design is this Mirena has to come out.
Last week at my yearly exam, I asked the Dr about being pregnant with Bella; the hyperemesis, preterm labor, the placenta being old even though she was 3 weeks early and 90% effacement at 30 weeks. I explained I was nervous and was looking for some answers/tests run/whatever.
She didn’t have any suggestions. Her answer was shrugging her shoulders and telling me that it could all happen again.
After this appointment I found two midwives that work at a hospital near me and I’m switching over there. Because the experience with doctors here so far leaves something to be desired. It’s not that they are going to give me a different answer, but I want to be at least listened to with some respect and understanding behind it.
I don’t know if it’s because the Dr’s here see so many young mothers who they boss around and then just figure everyone is an idiot (which makes me mad for those girls) but I’m over it. I know my body. I understand what it does. I want a doctor who will work with me and supports my lifestyle; from babywearing to breastfeeding to wanting a different kind of hospital birth.
I want to have my knowledge of a rough previous pregnancy taken into consideration for thinking about a second one. I don’t want to be brushed off or feel like I’m a pain for even thinking about the risks.
I had a great Dr. experience last time. I know those type of medical professionals are out there.
Hopefully I can find it again with a midwife.
I’m dreading today. First because they have to get all up in there (shudders) and second because I know it will be more of the same. But after, well, then I guess without a Mirena floating around we’ll have to make a decision pretty quick. I already know what Sam’s choice is.
I think I’m 60/40 with the big number getting higher by the day. I’ll let you guess which is which.
P.S. You’re probably wrong.
I know. That’s mean…