9 weeks pregnant with twins. {& belly pics}

The wand moves around on my stomach. Sam and I peer at the monitor above and listen to the tech chat about heartbeats and measuring me and how I charted. I tell her, “I’m 9 weeks 1 day according to my charting, so it’ll be interesting to see how close the baby is to that.”

She pauses for a brief second and I see an odd shape on the screen. I think it must be the placenta. Or yolk sac? Or just space – it’s all so wishy washy up there that I can’t ever tell what’s what this early on.

“So…, ” she says slowly, “Can I show you something?”

Oh no, I think. It must be either really good or really bad. I take a deep breath. “Ok.”

She swishes the wand again. “That? That is a baby. There is a little heartbeat.”

I smile. Whew. Good.

But then she turns the wand to the other side of my stomach and at that moment, everything stops. I know. I know I’m having twins. I feel like I’m having an out of body experience and can’t put any thoughts together to make myself come back. My mind is blank and my heart races and I feel like I might explode at any moment with anticipation. I also feel like I might barf but am not sure if it’s sickness or the wait. It feels like a million hours go by in those short seconds as life comes to a screech.

“And this,” she tells us with a smile in her voice, “this is a baby too. Another baby.” And the picture shows another little blurb of life, with a tiny heart beating away so furiously. “You’re having twins.”

I lay on the table in shock letting it register and then start to laugh. Sam sits in the chair with Bella peering at the screen, his mouth open wide. “You were right,” he says, and I laugh and then cry and can’t take my eyes of the screen. I’d told him a few weeks ago I thought I was having twins but then nearly everyone who is really sick thinks that – so I pushed it out of my head. What were the odds after all?

Baby A and B.

Indeed.

We get to see both babies on the screen, hear their heartbeats at 178 and 194. They move around and wiggle all over. Its surreal. Like Christmas morning and winning the lottery and jumping off a cliff with a hang glider all at the same time. She measures them, just as excited as us, and says, “Look at that, Baby A is 9 weeks 1 day, and B is 9 weeks. Just like you said.”

Fertility Friend charting FTW.

The doctors are all called in, my midwife among them. She chats with me about how she won’t be able to be my main provider anymore because I’m now high risk, but she’ll still be the backup one. I am sad but all I want is the best care for multiples I can get. I meet the new OB briefly and love her.

As we walk out, I can’t stop giggling. Sam and I steal glances at each other and smile, then ask Bella, “How many babies in Mama’s tummy?”

“Two!” she says confidently. By the time we get home it’s grown to a just as confident, “Three!”

We’re working on it. :)

And now. There is the planning. The months of excitement and changes and all that comes with this. From cribs to co sleeping to breastfeeding to cars and carseats and strollers and trips home and bed rest and Bella and babywearing and cloth diapers x 2 and money and labor and OMG SO MUCH. I still can’t wrap my head around the fact that at some point, I will have two babies to hold and rock. How much this will impact Bella, our family, and my sleep (yes, that fits right up in most important things) – how all our lives have and will change in a single instant more than we could have ever imagined.

But. Today there is just us. With twins. And we don’t have to do any of this for a while. I firmly believe we were given what God knew we could handle, and in return he will provide us with just what we need. From strength to finances to time. He knew how much I wanted a bigger family and gave me just that. Sickness, tiredness, all of it. I can handle this. Sam and I can do this.

Today I am pregnant with twins. And I am thankful.

::fist pumps God::

9 weeks and 1 day.

Comments

  1. TWINS!!!

    Can I tell you I had a sneaking suspicion when you broke out the maternity pants last week?

  2. Congrats for you and your family, so exciting!!!

  3. Um, wow! That is amazing and exciting. I wish you all the best!

  4. I Just got chills….LOTS of them!!! Couldn’t be more excited for you + your little…GROWING! …family!!

  5. Congratulations! Love the way you write about this… So exciting! Prayers to you & your family as this exciting journey begins.

  6. Fist pump God…..hilarious! I am so happy for you!

  7. Sarah Hammond says:

    OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhh!!!! OK, My guess is there’s a boy and a girl! I’m taking that off the difference in heart beats…. sounds scientific to me! :)

  8. Congratulations on your twins. I think its sooo exciting. I have always wanted identical twin girls but i got 4 boys and 3 girls. I love every minute of it! God tells us not to worry about tomorrow bc He’s got it under control.Relax and enjoy the journey!

  9. Awesomeness! Twins! Big sister! Planning! And… a great new haircut! What a fantastic week!

  10. That is so awesome! My twins are 2 and it’s a lot of work but so very cool! Not everyone gets to have this experience. Congratulations!!

  11. Yayyyy! So excited for you ^_^

  12. Congrats! That is so awesome and exciting and scary but mostly just awesome!

  13. Freaking AWESOME! Can I just say a small part of me is jealous?! I would love to have twins.

    Also, I think it’s a boy & a girl too!

  14. Oh my goodness!!! Congrats, Diana!! That is so very exciting and special. :-)

  15. This post is pure awesomeness in words. Congrats again!!!

  16. How fun! you look great, I cant wait to see you as you progress, and them when they come. :)

  17. Congratulations!

  18. OMG!! TWINS!!! Congratulations!! Also? I totally covet your tub. Great picture.

  19. Congrats Mama! I can’t wait to follow your journey! How exciting.

  20. WOOOO! ok so:
    1) You said you needed something to blog about, no more boring for you!
    2) YAY now you have TWO babies at the same time!
    3) Now you know why your jeans were tight. You rock on with those maternity clothes, you deserve them!
    xoxoxo

  21. This post just makes me smile! =D You are gonna rock this mama!!!!

  22. YAY! So exciting. And indeed, so much to wrap one’s head around! But yay, congratulations! BTW this SO justifies your maternity pants ;-)

  23. I am still in shock for you! But seriously, how exciting! I’m a twin, identical, but it is such a special bond. You are in for such an amazing ride. :) Congratulations x2 Diana!

  24. Congratulations! I’ve got four already, so better you than me. :) You have a great attitude, and you’re right. You can handle this!

  25. & I’m crying. At my desk at work. Because I’m so happy for y’all. & have felt {am feeling} every. single. one. of those emotions in the past 21 weeks. Much love & here for you always!

  26. Wow! What a blessing! Congratulations to you, Sam and Bella. You are going to have an amazing journey for sure. :)

  27. I am so excited for you! I love how you told this story. I love how you knew before you knew. It’s pretty amazing. :-)

  28. TWINS.

  29. Summer Davis says:

    Congratulations!!! I would have loved twins. I am so desperately excited for you. If anyone can handle it, I believe God chose a wonderful woman.

  30. Congrats!! Can I tell you – I’m a twin and I LOVE IT!!! We’re both 28 now and still the best friends ever. And between the two of us, we have 5 kids, hers are 2, and 3, mine are 4, 5, and 6. We have absolutely the best time when we’re together, kids or not. You’ve been tremendously blessed!

  31. WOW!!! Incredible, amazing….so happy for you!!! (now you definitely need a doula…lol)

  32. Do you feel super justified in your “early” maternity clothes switch? Also, this is my friend Rachel’s blog, full of pictures of her twins cuddling. No matter how far apart they put the girls in the crib, they wiggle toward one another and cuddle like they did in the womb! http://grsgvintageluggage.blogspot.com/

    I am getting so impatient to blog about my pregnancy, now! Husband wants to wait…

    Oh, and, um, I WISH I COULD BE YOUR NANNY SO BAD. That is all.

  33. Congrats! I’m sure that explains a lot for you!! :)

  34. fist pump is right!

  35. Great. Thanks for making me cry right in the middle of the library.

    But OH, what a WONDERFUL STORY!!!! Thank you for sharing it with us. I feel just as excited as you!!!

  36. God will provide, you’re so right! ::fist pumps god:: best ever!!

  37. I was in such a good mood last night after I read this news. Now I’m even more disappointed that I won’t get to hug you at Blissdom.

    But still SO excited for you. My best friend went through having twins and it’s just the best ever!

  38. I just think about your previous post, where you were so frustrated with the sickness and ready to call it quits on having a bigger family, and it makes me all the more happy for you. Congratulations!

  39. YAH!! I’m so excited for you! Congratulations! I’m so excited to watch your journey and share in the excitement.

  40. Melissa Collier says:

    Congrats!!! I had the exact same shock about 2 years ago, I just relived it through your description :)

  41. I am so incredibly excited for you! What an amazingly wonderful surprise.

    As a funny side note, after my 5 year old nephew found out I was pregnant he got so excited. Then he told my sister “I’m going to pray Aunt Abigail has twins! It would be so much fun to have two babies.”

    Needless to say I’m not hoping God answers his prayer with a yes. But on the very remote chance he’s right at least I have someone just a couple weeks ahead of me in the twin journey….? Let’s just hope for ONE healthy baby for me. I’ll let you be the twin mama. ;)

  42. I’m so excited to read about your journey with twins. My youngest sister and brother are twins and it’s truly magical. I love how you said that God doesn’t give you more than you can handle …. Amen, sister.
    :)

  43. I’m SO SUPER excited for you! God’s giving you 3 babies for only 2 pregnancies….yay!

    I miss you and am praying for you daily!

  44. That is so amazing! And, a little scary, but only because I’m currently awaiting my first ultrasound for baby #3. Congratulations, what amazing news!!!

  45. yeeei! twins!!
    how excited, is awesome how you are taking all of this so well. I went nuts the moment I knew I was having just one!
    congrats!!!
    cant stop reading your blog!

  46. I love this! Still tearing up reading this. So happy for BOGO! ;)

  47. This is incredible! Now, this might sound crazy, but after your post about not being able to endure another pregnancy because of sickness, this is a blessing! No more pregnancies if you choose!

  48. I had to read this 3 times just to make sure I wasn’t imagining it! After readding your post about wanting to have a bigger family and knowing that you couldn’t go through the sickness and fatigue for a third time…..and then TWINS! I got the biggest smile on my face and goosebumps all over! I don’t know you as well as I would like to but i felt like I was celebrating for a close friend! I starting cheering, and sam was looking at me like I was nuts! I am beyond excited for you. It makes me want to move to texas just so I can help you when those babies get here! I know I’m crazy…but I’ve got aall by good thoughts flying to texas for you, sam, bella, and the babies!

  49. Congratulations. I hope to get to say hi at Blissdom, but if I don’t I will be following your journey. I will be praying for you to have a happy and healthy pregnancy.

  50. Congratulations! So exciting! Do you follow @arwenelizabeth or @hhhippiemommy on Twitter? Both have twin babies. Prayers for good health for all of you!

  51. Wow Diana I had no idea! I’m so happy for you! What a very exciting adventure you, Sam and Bella are about to embark on. Best wishes to you for a healthy pregnancy and a safe delivery. My heart and prayers are with you and I only hope for the best! <3

  52. So awesome! Twins – what a great experience. Wishing you, Sam & Bella all the best on this journey!

  53. I’m so emotional ahh! Having a couple little tears here. I’m just so incredibly happy for you!!!!

  54. Congratulations! Oh, so you’re not just expecting your second now, but you’re third, too. :D

  55. CONGRATS!! (and by the way, you have a GREAT bathtub)! =)

  56. Wow! Congratulations!

  57. Hiii
    Your story is kinda similar to me. I am 9w3d pregnant. When I got to know about my identical twin pregnancy, I smiled with joy and could not stop myself to see on the screen. Two tiny spots in a sac, but I felt that they are two healthy babies and soon be in my arms. Other will be confused to differentiate but being a mother I will identify them at first glance. And lots of dreams I suddenly started to see with my open eyes. But when I read about some complications and syndromes about identical twins, I got scared and now praying every moment for wellness of my innocent babies.

  58. Yeah, twins!!!

    I have been following your blog for a while now, somehow I missed this post a couple weeks ago.

    I am a twin mom too, mine are now 14 months and I also have a 2.5 year old, all boys. From your ultrasound photo it looks like maybe they are mono/di twins?

    You are right, you can do it! I am so excited for you and your family!

    • Thanks! They are actually fraternal twins – the shot was an odd angle off my cell and via a transvaginal u/s so they didn’t capture the separate sacs. We are excited too and I’m happy to know of another twin mom out there!!

  59. Oh my, what an exciting time in your life right now. I will pray for healthy momma and babies. A close friend of mine has two twin girls who are turning 4 soon. To encourage you she had a healthy pregnancy, delivery, and those girls couldn’t be any cuter. I pray blessings over you and your family. Thanks for sharing here.

  60. Michele Murray says:

    Congratulations… I am new to this site and was reading about you having twins. I have twin 16 year old girls and I knew from the moment I was pregnant that I was having twins. It was all I thought about, I joked about it on April Fools day and then told the person giving me my Ultrasound that I felt like I was having twins. I think sometimes you just know.
    Good luck…my girls are wonderful and I could never imagine life without them. It was a great pregnancy for me.

  61. Congrats…I got my first scan tomorrow! Did you have any idea you may be having twins? I guess it is a lot to sink in.

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