I know you probably felt terrible posting this, but I’m so glad you did. Although I never dreamed of a “big” family like you did–I always pictured husband, me, two kids and a dog–I feel like my nine-month-old may be my only child because I had the same pregnancy you’re having now. Though no one diagnosed it or called it anything, I had incredible debilitating sickness for all nine months, day and night. I lost weight, I ended up in the hospital for fluids, and I literally felt like I lost myself for nine months. I hated daily life in every way, and I can’t imagine putting myself, my husband, or my son through that to have a second child.

I’m glad you’re going to have two happy, healthy children and I think it’s beautiful that you are open to having others in your family–even if they don’t come from you. I hope you are able to get some relief.
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Momma, I know how hard this is for you. And I can’t even imagine what you are going through. It makes me sad to know there’s nothing that can be done to help. But I do know that you are an amazing mom, and your family will grow. There are so many children out there that would be lucky to have you and Sam as parents. Lots of hugs to you. I’m here for you…whatever you need. <3
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I know that this is not a good analogy, but when I admitted that I couldn’t go off meds for pregnancy because I would not function and then, in that same conversation, learned that I couldn’t breastfeed, I sat on a park bench in the middle of New York City and sobbed. Because I wanted do this thing I always knew I would do–just be pregnant, have a baby–without so much risk and drama and careful oversight. I cried on that bench because I wanted to do this easily and breastfeed like the crazy hippie lady who raised me–with no trouble. I cried because I have spent my life picturing a specific moment (the is actually a picture of it on my blog, me and my mom the day I was born) and now, I will never have that moment. I will have something else, something amazing, something I will love and cherish. But I have every right to be sad about not having *that* one.

I know that yours is a very different disappointment, but I support your right to mourn the pregnancy and motherhood experiences you dreamed about and will not have. It doesn’t make you ungrateful. It means that you care, and that these dreams and instincts and desires are meaningful and real. Whatever comes later (adoption, something you haven’t thought of yet, a miracle cure for this), taking a moment right now to mourn for what you so desperately wanted is so healthy. It sucks. (Why do healthy things suck so often?) It’s miserable. But after a lifetime of therapy, I can confidently say that being honest about feelings you cannot change and feeling them now can only be good in the long run.

You have me in tears, now. I’m going to go hold that baby I nanny and keep praying that I’m pregnant this month. I hope Bella behaves angelically today and blows you a million kisses from across the room where she’ll be happily playing solo. Quietly.
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Oh, honey. I wish I could tell you something to make it better. But I can’t. So I’ll pray for you and listen to whatever you need to say.
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Big hugs. Wise women know their limitations. And you are right, there are other ways to grow your family. One of the couples I admire the most have 5 children (2 via biological, 2 via foreign adoption (Ghana ), and 1 via domestic adoption). I’m sorry you are so sick again and I hope you find peaceful rest soon.
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I am SO sorry! My best friend was super sick with her first but her second pregnancy was “smooth sailing” so to speak. She had some nausea but not like the first time. I had hoped you would be the same way. I’ll be praying for you. I wish I knew some secret cure!

Here is a Pin that made me think of you…hopefully it will put a smile on your face in the midst of another miserable day!

http://pinterest.com/pin/165155511304565723/
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I’m so sorry, Diana. I wish I could reach through the screen and give you a big hug. I don’t know what else to say because I don’t know what it’s like. But just know you are in my thoughts.
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Oh, Diana! I was so hoping your nausea would start to ease. And maybe it still will. I’ll keep praying for that to happen. In the meantime, you are going to be a wonderful mother to two beautiful birth children…… and I can’t begin to imagine how wonderful a mother you will be to future adopted children. There is much love in your heart, ready to be shared. This pregnancy is not the end for your family. Rather, this pregnancy marks a beginning for your family. Sending hugs!
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I had a very bad second pregnancy, my first wasn’t nearly as bad! My doctor put me on unisom and that did wonders for me. If I forgot to take it I had a horrible day so I never missed! Hope you feel better soon! It seems like forever when you don’e feel good, but the day will come and it will be worth it:) Side note our Andy is our last child because I was not going through that again! And my age caught up to me:)