On Mary’s Pregnancy and Faith

I’m 4 weeks and 4 days
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Yeah, I’m excited.

I’m due August 25th.

Two days after the boys “due date” – which was actually Sept but 36 weeks was the longest I probably would have gone.

Already this little one is covered in prayers and love.

And yes, every day I wonder if this baby will come home with us. If I will have to come on here and say it’s gone. I can’t help it. I wish so hard I didn’t think those thoughts, but my therapist says it’s a way of grieving and healing as well. Which I still am. This baby isn’t a replacement of Preston and Julian in any way – if anything the closeness of their pregnancies at the same time makes the loss a little sharper. Makes me miss them and what I missed out on even more.

Then I pray so hard God allows me to have this one to fill some of that hole in my heart.

As I read the Advent story with the She Reads Truth community, I’m again and again blown away by the women that had enough faith to be a part of the Christmas story for all eternity, and I take strength from their stories and joy. If anyone had cause to worry, it was Mary. A girl from a nice family who showed up in public unmarried and knocked up while telling everyone it was God’s baby.

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Think about that one for a second. She could have lost everything – including her life. Even knowing this she still obeyed and stayed faithful.

I don’t have as much riding on this pregnancy as she did, and so I take my cue from a girl who was probably 12, rode a donkey at 8/9 months pregnant for days, had her first baby in a barn with no help, the world had no idea who she was, no money or home, a husband who wasn’t the father, men showing up at all hours to peek at her kid, and a king that was determined to kill her little boy.

What an inspiration, what a testament of faith, what a picture of a mother’s love.

 

Comments

  1. Congratulations!!! Hugs and love and prayers!

  2. Mary’s story is truly one for the ages, eh? I don’t often reflect on what a strong YOUNG person she was, and how scared she must of been…and how much transition and unknowns she was navigating. God chose the right one, eh? =) (maybe the biggest understatement of the year lol) By the way,didn’t know you were expecting again, (((bear hug))) & congrats, Diana! I’m thrilled for you & pray this little one will make safe passage all the way into your arms. xo

  3. I needed this reminder today. Thank you for the poignant timing of this. God bless you and this pregnancy. I’m praying nonstop over here for you, Sam, Bella and the baby. Sending loads of positive energy your way.

  4. I have been following your blog for a while now and I can honestly say that you are an inspiration for many. I too have a daughter, suffered a miscarriage and then I have been blessed with another baby. The pregnancy went smoothly on the whole but I was paranoid to say the least. One thing helped me going on and at times overcome my fear – prayer and the faith in God. Wishing you all the best Diana!

  5. Yay! Congratulations!

  6. Congrats! Prayers over you and baby. You’re due exactly one month after me :) We’re telling our families on Christmas.

  7. You’ve really put Mary’s pregnancy & faith into a unique
    Frame of reference. I love it.

  8. Antoinette says:

    I just want to share with you something that has been shared with me recently. We too are cautiously expecting a new pair of feet (9 days earlier than you) in our family after a loss in July and this is one of the few things I am taking time out of each day to tell myself instead of letting the worry and the fear consume me. Your deep devotion to God bought this one in particular in to mind.

    Samuel 1:27 “I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him.”

  9. I’ve never been so excited for someone I have never met! Congratulations! I have been following you since you were in the hospital with the boys and I just want you to know that I’m praying that you have a healthy, wonderful pregnancy and a perfect, beautiful baby.

    God bless you,
    Katie

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