I was told today a reason this new dr thinks we lost the twins.
It’s honestly so much to take in, so overwhelming to ponder when you’ve been told nothing could have been done. So I’m not going to go into details, save to say that it puts me at an even higher risk for this pregnancy, and adds things that need to be done.
And it’s me. It was something they found in blood work that caused some of this.
Sometimes I wish I could just go to the dr and not have a bomb dropped on me. And yet I’m so, so thankful they care and this new OB is trying so hard to do everything she can for this baby.
Who is ok. This baby is good, I’m ok, it all looks normal but lots of procedures coming up as precautions.
It’s odd to live in the “what might have been” world every so often with news like I got today, while carrying the “what will be” that is here now. Harder still not to dwell on the what ifs – what if I had asked for testing? What if the doctor before had just taken the time? And it doesn’t do anything for them. It is what it is.
Strangely as much as I have going on, it’s almost comforting to know everything possible is being done now.
Your thoughts and prayers for us and this baby are so appreciated. I’m very much trying to live in the “now” while remembering and cherishing the memories of the two we didn’t get. Xo