Diana

First Midwife Appointment – I was listened to.

February 3, 2012 by Diana 17 Comments

It’s taken me all evening and night to process how to write the impact of a caring medical person on a nervous to-be mother. But when I walked into my midwife’s clinic yesterday, I knew from the moment I met the first nurse that this was it. I had found the place I needed to be as long as we are here.

I went a bundle of nerves, and when the nurse asked me to pee in the cup so she could dip the stick, I had the thought, “Oh my, what if she tells me I’m not pregnant? How embarrassing would that be?”

I still am. Since the paralyzing morning sickness wasn’t enough to convince me. [Read more...]

Filed Under: Babies, Family, Pregnancy, Thankful · Tagged With: Birth, Look what I found, Midwives, New and Improved, Things that make me smile

24 hours.

February 2, 2012 by Diana 15 Comments

Well, just a tad over 24 but close enough.

Yesterday morning was a disaster.

Last night just Bella and I went to dinner as Sam had 24 hour duty. I cried on the way home thinking of how pretty soon these times would be few and far between. Even though wonderful times are coming. Ah hormones.

This morning I woke up at 4am to calm a terrified Bella and almost hurled on her bed. I took a half of a Zofran (safe for pregnancy, did it 7 months with Bella, hoarded them like crack) and laid in bed in terror, waiting to be sick. Once I start to throw up I can’t stop and no one was home to help me. [Read more...]

Filed Under: Babies, Pregnancy · Tagged With: Massive Barfing, Wishful Thinking

The Blogger Bubble

February 1, 2012 by Diana

“I don’t understand,” the mom says, leaning forward. Her eyes are full of confusion and doubt. “Why on earth would you want to homeschool?”

And I? Am stumped.

Not so much as why – but how to explain it to her. I want to tell her to hold while I type out a post or pull up an old one and then have her read it.

As I stumble my way through talking about it, I begin to realize we are on different pages. More so than she and I thought previously. Not bad ones. Not better ones. Just different.

This is one of the first times I’ve started to see how much of a bubble blogging can put you in.

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Filed Under: Blogging, Confessions, Opinions, Playdates · Tagged With: Life Misconceptions, Real life

A small miracle

January 31, 2012 by Diana 13 Comments

The past 3 days I’ve been really sick. Well, more like the past couple weeks but really the last 3 days have been the worst, and getting worse.

Sam was home this weekend so he was able to take care of everything, but it was still hard. Hard not to be able to play with Bella, hard to lay on the couch hour after hour and wish I could do something. Even when we did get out for fresh air to the park I spent most of the time sitting and trying not to be sick.

And it’s just massive headaches, stomach aches, and constant nausea. But the kind that puts you flat on your back. [Read more...]

Filed Under: Babies, Pregnancy, Stress ·

A Timeline of Toddler Painting

January 30, 2012 by Diana 10 Comments

The funny thing about Bella painting is that it takes her a while to dive in. She always hesitates, no matter how excited, to stick her hands in and really push all the colors around.

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Filed Under: Family, Fun Times, Photography · Tagged With: Things that make me smile, Why I do what I do

6 weeks pregnant

January 29, 2012 by Diana 14 Comments

This week has been exhausting. And while I don’t want to be a complainer – I do want to be honest on here.

I.AM.SO.TIRED.

I can only remember being this tired the months after Bella was born. But for that I had a reason. She never slept and I had massive amounts of unnatural energy during the day that allowed me to clean nonstop and regret it at night. [Read more...]