4 Years Ago

4 years ago today I sat down on a clunky desktop and typed out this post. I was tired. I was bored. I was stuck inside all day with a 2 month old.

I missed writing and had been sucked into blogs by Beth Anne and Ashley‘s way of writing their lives for an audience.

4 years.

How long did I struggle with coming to terms of writing on here?

This has been a much different story on here than I imagined 4 years ago. I never thought I’d have documented almost losing our first home, watching Sam rejoin the military, a move to El Paso, or deciding to homeschool.

I’ve chronicled Bella’s life and her milestones, announced twins, an adoption, and another baby. This blog holds three of the start to finish lives of my sons. I’ve cried and grieved and railed against God. I’ve fallen in love with my husband all over again and again.

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Tell Me When It’s Over. Mmmmkay?

We got our homestudy approved!


Just in time to find out that we no longer qualify to adopt from Korea or any other country our agency works with.

You can read about it on Babble. Today was quite the day.

I’ll be in a hole, head covered. Rocking. There might be thumb sucking.



What’s Going on With Our Adoption

I haven’t blogged much on our adoption here because frankly – if I did I’d have nothing left to put at Babble. That money is helping to pay for it, so it’s pretty crucial I have things to write on. Plus I love it. During an adoption, there tends to be long periods of nothing, so news I get is saved for a post to write there.

But tonight, I wanted to let my thoughts out on here instead. For those of you who don’t read my Babble posts (sobs), we have a waiting child that we expressed interest in. A little boy, 9 months old. He has medical conditions that put him in the waiting child category. I wrote earlier today about how I spoke with the international adoption pediatrics doctor in Houston this morning. She’d been going over our waiting child’s photos and medical information for the past few days and talked to me for about an hour on it all.

When Sam came home this evening, I relayed as much as I could through my notes and memory. Our agency had written us quickly back with some new information, but nothing that drastically changed what we know.

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It Just Could Be…

We have big news. BIG NEWS.

And since I’m documenting the majority of our adoption journey over on Babble, I wrote about it all there.

So go read!

And then pray for us. Pray hard for clear thinking, wise decisions, and a Godly outlook. And patience.

Loving What I Do

Even though yesterday was a tad insane, I’d say 95% of the time I absolutely love what I do. I enjoy writing through Bella’s nap, trying to come up with different perspectives on things for posts, researching military ideas I didn’t know about. It’s been an amazing past few months finally being able to do this. Although I have off days, just like everyone, I am always thankful for the opportunities I have to do what I love.

This past week and then some, I’ve written about both the adoption and why I write as openly as I do about our lives and my feelings. It’s not always easy – there has been a lot of flack over the past 2 1/2 years of me blogging that would cause me to hesitate sharing anymore. I’m so glad I did and I still do.

I get emails from people saying that sharing my story has changed their lives – but you have to know that when you write me with your story or encouraging words,

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