#12Prayers – For Miscarriage and Infant Loss

12 prayers Today I have the honor of praying with and for those of you who have lost a child and/or are walking with someone who has. Rachel from @makesomethingbeautiful on Instagram (find her blog here) asked me to write 12 prayers – 6 for those of us who have lost and 6 for friends and family. Each orayer contains a verse I and others have found comforting or encouraging on this path, as well as a short prayer that goes with it.

This is something Rachel has hosted before under the #12prayers hashtag with prayers for marriage, back to school, Iraqi Christians, and our hearts. Her dedication to reaching out to so many of us is inspiring. You can read more behind this movement here

Please join us now in praying, once an hour from 9-9, on her page for our lives and those grieving around us. 


Whoever Welcomes a Little Child…

I’ve been thinking a lot of what to ask from you all as I prepare to travel to Zimbabwe in exactly one week. I’ve thought of prayer for myself, the rest of the team, the people we’ll meet, the leaders in Zimbabwe that we’ll be speaking with, our health, the travel, etc.

And yet.

Something has weighed on my heart to share with you.

I want you to be a part of this. Not just by looking at pictures or reading, but a real part of World Vision gearing up to make a crucial difference in the lives of women and children. Zimbabwe has one of the worst crises for pregnant women and infants happening right now.

“Zimbabwe is among 40 countries where the maternal death rate exceeds 960 per 100,000 live births (emphasis mine)… And the situation is not improving: Maternal mortality in Zimbabwe rose by 28 percent between 1990 and 2010. Globally, just 287 mothers die per 100,000 live births, and in sub-Saharan Africa the figure stands at 500 per 100,000, according to Zimbabwe’s Ministry of Health and Child Care.” AlJezeera.com

What can you do? How can you be a part of this?

It’s simple. You can sponsor a child in Zimbabwe here: http://myshare.worldvision.org/dianawrote 

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Numb

Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day.

Before October 2012, I’d never heard about it – or if I did I didn’t care much. It wasn’t a day I wanted to acknowledge because it had to do with being sad and dead babies and – just no.

Here I am now.

The first year I was angry. Angry that I even had to be a part of this day at all. I wanted my babies back, I wanted my life back. I didn’t want to send off balloons or light a candle, I wanted two cribs, carseats, and to be exhausted.

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Impatient Outsider

I’m sitting here with a hot cup of coffee (cream only, hotter the better) thinking about how it’s been a week since I’ve written on here. I’m not sure why.

I feel left out of everything lately. Life in general. I’m the oddball out almost everywhere I go. I enrolled Bella in gymnastics last month, and two moms with babies sat and chatted about breastfeeding/formula/clothes/nights/etc the whole time. It was so hard to hear, then on top of it little baby whimpers that sent me straight back to Children’s with Kaden. I had to get up and leave the room a few times (Bella was in another room completely).

The last day of it, I chose to sit a little ways away from them and could hear them whisper softly about how I thought I was better than them or something. It hurt so much. I wanted to unload my story on them both, watch their faces as they struggled to find something to say to me then. But I didn’t. I ignored them and their living babies and took Bella home at the end.

We start Girl Scouts next week. I was talking with the lead mom yesterday about it by phone, and she said, “The parents all stick around during the meetings, they’ve become such good friends.”

Great, was all I could think. I wonder when I’ll have to explain why I can’t hold their baby without crying while they dash to the restroom or that Bella isn’t my only child.

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What Can We Do? In Kaden’s Memory -

I’ve had people ask this past year what they can do for us with all of this. Truly – there isn’t anything we need besides the prayer, love, and check-in’s you guys are so wonderful about giving.

Yet today, I feel this tug to ask for something on Kaden’s angelversary. Not for us. But in memory of Kaden and what his diagnosis meant to the researchers and advocates for this ciHHV-6 virus.

If you feel led to do something in his memory or in the name of science or for any reason at all – please give to the HHV-6 Foundation. Your donations are tax deductible. The Foundation is a public non-profit organization. They take PayPal. This is where we donated the money raised by you all through Brickyard Buffalo last year.

CIHHV-6

None of this money goes to us, we’ll never know who gave what. There isn’t specific case for him so it will be put where money is needed the most; directly to the research here and across the world (Japan and Germany currently).

Here are just a few of the needs for this foundation:

  • Establishment of a registry for CIHHV-6 individuals: $25,000
  • Study of the disease associations of ciHHV-6: $10,000

Plus:

  • More kits sent to people – with no expense to the patient.
  • More information given to doctors who aren’t even aware this is an issue.
  • More children being diagnosed faster with a better chance of survival.

$5 would pay shipping on a kit. So please don’t think any donation is too small. If you can’t give, perhaps you’ll consider sharing this with your FB/Twitter/whatever you use. :)

That’s all I can think of that I truly want or need on this day. Just a little reminder to the rest of the world seeing his names on forms and papers as they test and diagnose that he is loved and remembered.

Thank you all for the love that you’ve showered on us these past two years.

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Find out more about ciHHV-6 and donating.

{And (for my own selfish reasons) if you wanted to send me an email saying you donated, I wouldn’t hate that. ;) In fact it would make my day.}