On Bella and Growing Up

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A few weeks ago it was cold outside.

It’s not anymore.

Sorry everyone else that gets a winter. I see your pics and I am also hoping spring comes soon for you all! O_o

Bella has this adorable hat that she wants to wear everywhere. She got herself all dressed on this day – and as she headed outside to play, I thought, “Wow, look how tall she’s getting.”

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How to Simplify the Last Step of Potty Training

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How to Simplify the Last Step of Potty Training

I’ve mentioned before that Bella was amazingly simple to potty train. She’s been completely day time trained for nearly 2 years, nighttime since October, and we’ve never had any major issues with it. There are times she still needs us, and those are mainly when there is a problem with the wipes. We’d bought a few different kinds, but no matter what, she’d leave the lid open or have such a rough time pulling them out they all went at once. Leaving us with a huge stack of wet wipes to try to stuff back in or dry ones to toss.

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2 Years Sober

Wow. 2 years y’all. 2 years ago I was sitting at my parents house, crying, with a 10 month old baby sleeping in a pack n play while Sam and I argued on the phone about his drinking. As I repeated over and over that I simply couldn’t take it anymore, something had to give.

2 years later we sit here – and how life has changed. Even in the past year.

It’s a good feeling to know we’re 2 years into a new life. A wonderful thing to know we can handle things, big things, without drinking those feelings away. Or fighting and arguing.

Life is peaceful here. Rarely is there a voice raised anymore, and when it is it’s replaced with one of us telling the other, “Let’s just stop and talk about it instead of yelling.” It didn’t use to be this way. Holy Moses, we had some knock down drag outs that make me cringe to think about now. How did we live like that for 7 1/2 years? How was that our normal?

Hindsight.

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Happy Birthday To Me. I’m Headed to NYC.

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The title is absolutely meant to be read with the Happy Birthday tune. You’re welcome for humming it the rest of the day.

I’m 29 today. sigh. Last year in my twenties. What a – what an odd feeling. Like – I feel older than that. But then I can’t believe next year I’ll be 30.

That seems – surreal. I remember thinking 30 was REALLY OLD at one time. Like, gasp, ew, 30? O_o

Now, not so much. In my decrepit, feeble mind 30 is the new 18.

Or something.

Maybe the new 25. I was pretty dumb at 18.

So much has happened this past year. Since I turned 28 I:

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Was It Worth It?

The other day I was sent a picture of myself walking hand in hand with Bella. We were back east – almost a year ago. We were visiting Kim and she’d taken us to the park with her kids, and behind us snapped a photo.

And as I stared at it, I wished with all my heart I could tell the girl smiling down at her daughter just what was coming in the next 7 months to her life. How she’d go from a mom of one to three but then still just one. How her heart would be broken into a million pieces. How she’d never view life in the same casual way again.

My heart ached for her. It was strange, because rationally I knew that was me and I’m still here.

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