The Elephant in my Head

I can’t write lately because there is something that needs to be said and yet – I hesitated so very much saying it here.

For many reasons, mostly a few nasty comments of how Sam and I shouldn’t be allowed to have any more kids because we used to drink.

Lovely. FYI? I absolutely am allowed to have more kids so eat it. I’ll have as many as I want, and I’ll be a fantastic (sober!) mom to all of them.

Anyway, to get it out there – we’re TTC. Trying to conceive for anyone who wasn’t ever on The Bump.

And now all my family and friends are probably like, “EWWWWW now when we see you at Christmas…”

Right now I’m on a less than 2 week wait. I’ve been charting with Fertility Friend so sometime next week we should know about this cycle. We are excited and yet scared to death. I think about it all the time, because really, it’s a huge deal no matter what but after losing the twins this is like – monumental. Seeing that + sign means so much more than a baby in 8 months. SO MUCH MORE. I’ll have to write about it later when my head clears with how this all feels.

So there you have it. Agree, disagree, whatever. We’re hopefully making another baby. I’ll let you know how it goes.

You’re welcome.

Guess What? {TTC update & an italic overload}

So you all know we’re TTC with the FAM method (charting/temping). Since Dec. 8th I’ve hunkered down and started charting for reals. And this past week I’ve been:




hungry ravenous

having to pee all the time

gassy (that’s just plain delightful to Sam – payback honey)


breaking out like I’m 15

and I have sore boobs.

Sam is having the time of his life.

Obviously. As are we all.

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The moment I wake up, before I put on my makeup…

I take a little temp for you:


My chart is simply out of control. I have no idea what’s going on, and after talking to my girlfriend who’s temped for years, I’ve realized there isn’t a way to know. The Mirena has me all screwed up. I’m not even sure when this last cycle started because it stopped me from having real periods. I just had to pick a day.

Oh men. I am SO SORRY. Do not read anymore. ((hugs)) [Read more…]

Would it be TMI if…

Yeah, we still have a TMI level on here, even after the last few posts where I’ve taken you into my Dr appointments with a swirly chair view.

I’m thinking about posting the chart of (just) my temps on here, from Fertility Friend and following with Taking Charge of your Fertility. [Read more…]