The past few weeks have been – rough. I have so many emotions and feelings swirling around in my brain all the time. I told a girlfriend the other night that it feels like my thoughts are a game of pingpong.
Back and forth. Be happy, be sad. Be thankful, feel resentful. Be angry, be calm.
This week brought an unexpected death to our extended family. A lovely woman who left behind a very distraught family.
The twin’s 2 year birthday was Saturday.
Kaden’s 9 month birthday was Monday.
I see families moving on, growing, becoming the very thing so many of us picture when we think of adulthood. Marriage, babies, school.
Hope dims on days when this overwhelms me. When I look back at the past 2 1/2 years of waiting to bring one of our babies home and I’m furious that once again, I’m here with this burden to carry.