All The Things & Then Some

I think that most days I waver between, “This is so incredible” and “How the heck am I going to do all of this?”

Yes, this is all very exciting. Yes, it feels a bit surreal to tell people – how do you explain to someone (like my hairstylist today) what really is new?

“Well, so I blog, and I went back to school to be a grief and loss counselor – after going to Zimbabwe with World Vision – and I just signed with a literary agent to write a book.”

The questions that come from this are hard to answer in a short amount of time without any background. Where do I begin? How do I field questions like, “Why did you go to Zimbabwe? How do you get paid to write? What’s the book going to be about?”

Or my favorite, “My cousin LOVES to write and he doesn’t have a job, I’ve been telling him ‘Start a blog!’ so I should give him your email…”

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For I Know the Plans I Have For You…

What a few months it’s been. Truly. Zimbabwe. School. Writing for places I’ve always loved.

Writing a book.

Oh wait. Did I tell you all? :)

I’ve been signed to The Blythe Daniel Agency to write a book.

SHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUP

I can’t believe it. I really can’t. The day I said I was going back to school, one of their (crazy talented) literary agents, Jessica, reached out to me about writing a book.

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2015 Resolution: Change Someone Else’s Life

I thought this song by the amazing Kari Jobe was perfect to go with this post. 

So this year I decided to actually make some resolutions since the past 3 years I haven’t really done any. As I was thinking them through, I felt a little nagging voice asking, “Changing your world is great. It is. How about including others in this too?”

Y’all – what if we changed someone else’s life too this year? What if we looked back in December and could see the impact we made in a life or lives we didn’t even know existed before this day?

World Vision Child Sponsorship 4

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They Are Waiting

I’ve had people ask me excitedly, “How was Zimbabwe?” and honestly, I never know what to say. How do you sum up 12 days of an otherworldly, life changing, soul piercing experience into a few sentences?

Zimbabwe with World Vision 2014

“It was good – life changing.”

So much happened there that I don’t even know where to begin. Even on here.

As time passes, I’ll be able to share more stories in depth. One at a time. To think of trying to do it all in a post or two – well there’s no way. You’d be reading a small novel on here. I need to process them, and often in the meantime they tie into my life in America in unexpected ways. It’s then that I feel that little rush to write about it, and then when it comes out the best.

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Lost and {Hoping to be} Found

It’s been nearly three weeks since I wrote on here. Mostly because I have been a bit too overwhelmed to write how I’m feeling. And even typing that makes me want to close the computer.

I’m tired of feeling like this. I don’t know what else to say. I often wish that I could go back to 3 years ago and make the decision to just have Bella – like we were on the verge of doing. I flipped through old pictures on Instagram yesterday – way back to when I wasn’t even pregnant with the twins, and my heart hurt. I saw this girl who was happy. Young. Vibrant.

I don’t even know where she went – or when I lost her. But I hardly recognize her anymore. In fact, by the end I felt so envious of my former self I had to shut off my phone for a while. (hashtag healthy right there y’all)

Then something hit me – there was hardly any Jesus in those pictures. I don’t even remember thinking about my faith a whole lot. A snap of a devotional once in a while. A Bible verse. Would I trade my faith now in for the easier, carefree me? Or the little glimpses of knowing my sons?

Everything is so different. Writing that feels like I’m complaining, but I don’t think I am. Just – struggling.

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